condemned.
what explanations can i give to rid myself off that identity without making matters worse for all of us? have i only got a choice? to keep mum and swallow them all...? mum you really gotta trust me. God, i'd really need extra luck to get me through this lap bcos i'll never be ready to face the consequences if anything were to retrogress.

dont i even have a stand to quibble?
feel so wronged.