i used to think that people who resorted to alcohol to forget things are plainly fools, but who'd ever imagine that im doing that too... maybe a little too much, a little over and true enough, it only makes your head spins, makes your muscle cramp, makes you tear and yet everything still remains unchanged the very next day youre sober. its dumb and moronic WE ALL KNOW... but it now seems to be my SUITtest drug. and i hate it cos my lifestyle has contradicted my principles.

if i have to cry this time, i hope the only reason will be because the time is passing too fast.