mid jan blues

i started off this year with a quarter-full inbox in my cell that i grasp tight on my hand and its now the 3rd week of 2008... i hope the rain's gonna wash away all the bad things real soon.

to those people who've always been there for me be it morally, emotionally or physically, who's always showering me with unconditional love and concern... i may not have expressed it but i really do appreciate em, esp those who are still there for me despite the nuisance i may have been whenever im boozed up.

"sen, i think you'll feel dehydrated so drink more water. anyway, just 2 cents of my worth.. it's normal for people to turn to alcohol to drown their sorrows. u did and i did too. alcohol numb the senses but it doesnt solve the problem. i may not know the reason why you're sad. perhaps ------ is a part of it. but no matter what the reason is, there have to be a time for you to stand up again. the faster, the better. only you can help yourself, no matter what the problem is. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ i may not be the best person for you to talk to neither am i a good listener, but if you ever need anyone to talk to, you can find me ya. and you dont ever need to feel ashamed in front of me, -- or even ----. we also have our own weaknesses and perhaps we have even embarassed ourselves worse before."

i may not be good at words and lets my pride get in the way at all times but deep within me theres more to what i wish to express. i really need this generous acceptation n understanding. sometimes i may not say a thing because im far TOO capable of holding back my words and stuff but deep within me i know that im worrying and questioning myself a little too much, it makes my head and heart aches.. but on the other hand, it'd only prove myself something... that is, i do care...

a brand new chapter of our lives is about to unfold... lets keep this year a smiley one alright. (:
lets do less drinks and give ourselves one lesser excuse to be tipsy about. we cant be drinking our moonlights away

happy 2008!

without realizing, xmas has passed and a brand new year 2008 is here.. i used to whine alot about how unfairly 2007 has been treating me but truth to be told, ive earned many many sweet memories and great companions throughout the year as well.

just a mini recollection of some of the gloomy days that i went through in the yr2007:
-that particular month that i have the urge to drink because of someone in the early part of the year.
-the sudden rough patch our family have to go through in sept and the nightmares i have to bear with within this period of time was tormenting but glad that im recovering really fast.
-the few days of 'quarantine' period and the little 'accusation' i have to put up with in early dec.
-and now, my school stuffs that ive yet to settle. (hopefully i'll see a silver lightning really soon)

i've lost many good things in between but i believe that i've gained better ones instead. to give it a fair credit, the good to bad was a ratio of 60:40. maybe i should stop complaining and accept the fact that this is life... things happened, with or without our intention of accepting it and i can only hope that 2008 will be a better year. whatever thats happened, its all in the heart. some things are yet to be solved but nevertheless, a happy new year to all of us! a new beginning, lets spread the love.. (:

*talking about it, my left eye's been twitching non-stop since just now. is it a bad sign or am i thinking too much?