blues.

will the songs chase the pain away

for once i wished that these partial memory loss i suffer for those few hrs could be a permanent one cos im REALLY getting weary of facing life's trials .. dont wanna be reminded, dont wanna deal with anything, dont wanna think about anything, dont wanna care about anything.. thought i could be selfish enuf to shove everythin aside and redeem myself but why am i feeling this lousy... even the beers wouldnt spare me the agony. tried to stay away from it but agn and agn i let it take control of my head. know that im doomed since school's reopening and im definitely not in the least mood to lay my hands on the books. overindulging in alcohol, can they do drugs or better still, numb my senses for nuts. allergic to myself and getting sick of myself.. like a good girl gone bad. thought that beer could be my slpin pill, obtaining me a gdnite's slp n help me sleep thru the day but recently these hibernations' been unpleasant and i simply cant get back to sleep. gr i think im insane, nuts and everything that a loony could be.