一个故事的开始如果注定是悲剧，你还会演下去吗？难道真的只有痛才能证明爱的存在吗？那爱情到底是什么呢？不為了要什麼 所以才給什麼。想说的太多一开口全都忘了。。。
today was pretty okay, i laughed and talked a lot. even if it was awkward for me whos always drunk and wandering about. i cry like a fool and tell myself i wun surrender, i swear and swear again... laughing and crying like a crazy person, i used to drink so much that i'll go crazy cos i know that alcohol puts me to bed. i cant think, think about those crazy days...... even when i had a lot of time to think. but now i figured out that in order for one to not lose anything, one must not believe anything. even tho the occurrence that took place the past few days may be a lil unpleasant, im glad that things seemed to be moving towards the right track.. been contemplating the pieces of advice i acquired from em and they actually turned out to be rather helpful in this recovery system, even the book deserved credits in this process. cos they say that even if i live, its not living. they say that even if i laugh,
its not laughing. they say i look shabby and it looks more like im crying while crying has become a bothersome for me now. but now is the new beginning, the tears (have dried) will dry and the sighs (have been) will be thrown away, i will wait for tomorrow cos its my time and soon i'll learn how to forget how to cry. and after i pass this troubled state, everything will be back to normal. im trying to let go of whats making me weary. i wanna be insane to not even feel it in my heart so dont take it out again... whatever will be, will be...
心冷是什么?
情是什么?
你是什么?
我们都要告别过去，才能走向美好的未来。幸福起点，从新开始。向過去道别，跟未來說早安。明天的笑脸，幸福的起点。 (:
anw i went to check out this 'resort' wher *next week's bbq event is supposed to be held at .. and im pretty pleased with the place. hopefully im stil in time to get hold of it as all the other chalets and resorts are already fully-booked due to time constraint. and this is the last option....
u guys were probably wondering where this is... so i'd disclose the place
